Tuesday

I have no idea what is happening but,
I'm losing my words,
right now I just can't explain,
anything,
everything,
all.

I feel like at some point I just want to cry my heart out,
but that would actually make me weak,
though people keep telling me,
how strong I am.

I'm starting to disbelief,
for the things I've believed,
for what I've held,
for people I want,
and love.